Review of 2017!

What a mammoth year 2017 has been! I am usually not one to reflect, I am that person that never looks back and takes every day as it comes.

This time last year my life was an absolute mess. I had come out of hospital with no pain relief, no clarity of what my disease was and no friends. All of my friends had abandoned me – for me that was the end of the road. I truly struggled to understand what was my purpose and if it was even worth it.

I went back to the start of the school year with me questioning ‘what was the point of me even going to school because I would never be able to hold down a job’

This year has been truly the toughest year yet, although by far the most rewarding. I have come out of this year with the most amazing friends who have been there for me through it all, I completed a year 12 subject, I have become a healthier and happier version of me. Lastly, I have learnt how to self love - I decided this year I would put myself and it was the best decision I made. I learnt who my true friends are and who I can trust and lastly who truly love me for being me.

I never believed that just one year could change everything.

Although my pain is still partially there and I am still on treatment I am back to living life. I spent more time at school, I actually have enjoyed my holidays so far instead of constantly being sick and lying in bed for two months.

As I write I am in the USA. When we booked this trip we were all truly thankful that I was still able to do some things and we planned a big trip with my family including all my nieces and nephews on Gaz’s side.

I recently spoke about it to Mum saying to her that it was a miracle I was still alive because we both truly thought that I wasn’t going to make it. So much so that two years ago we went on a family trip to the USA as a ‘last hoorah’ as I was deteriorating so quickly and to also get testing. I am so excited as I will actually be able to enjoy my holiday without crying out in pain each night.

So, if you are struggling hold on. There is light at the end of the tunnel even though you don’t see it. Stay strong and keep smiling.

“I love the person I’ve become because I fought so hard to become her” – Kaci Diane

Have a happy new year and good luck for the year ahead!

Carly xx